Aloha !

That’s right. I’m back. For good. I know some of you already have mixed feelings about this, but anyway. First things first, the main thing some of you were wondering: Why did I leave this board? Well, I’ll explain;

A few years ago I lost the plot a bit. Someone picked me up, tought me how to dance again and healed a lot of wounds. However, about a year later we started to grew apart, something terrible happened and the best and most special friendship I ever had stopped to exist. There were a lot of unspoken things, and I decided to make something for her. Something special. Something of which she would realize that she really had meant the world to me, and something in which she would find the answers to the questions she admitted she had.

We got on speaking terms again a few months later and admitted that we both regretted that it had to end this way, but there simply wasn’t any way to get back together again. In the meantime though, after graduating I started to study again, and started doing homework and all that stuff I rarely did before, which left even little time for posting on messageboards. I also moved and have my own house now, which took even less time. I sometimes worked on that something special, but also met a new girl, who would become my girlfriend. Because of my busy life, working and creating her present wasn’t always top priority. I also didn’t want to become obsessed by it, which would result into something that didn't show my intentions at all, but would result in a poor attempt "to get my old life back" and all that stuff. However, I did realise that she was waiting for it, and started to send her little samples of it, just to let her know I tried to keep my promise of answering her questions.

Have I send it now? No. Too many other "distractions" in life have made me have to wait before I could send it out. Nowadays, she doesn’t want any contact anymore whatsoever, which I can understand. She’s got her life, I’ve got mine. It’s close to finished now, a box with gifts and answers for her is just standing here. The answers and other things I had wanted to give her are still here, and maybe, just one day, we’ll talk to each other again. Have I gotten over this entire situation? No. The songs and memories are still there. But I’m getting there, I think. For now, I think I can say I’m back in the saddle again. I’ve got my own place now, a girlfriend, and school, as long as I don’t skip that many classes (Sudoku’s are great!) is going pretty well. When looking back on it now, I guess, it was just that the time was wrong.

That’s it. The reason why I left, and the reason why I’m back again. This is in no way a sympathy post or something like that, but just a small update of what my life has been for the past 2 years. It feels good to be back though. If I could handle alcohol I’d raise a beer on some of you, it's just a shame it gives me headaches so I'll keep it to raising only.

Salaam Aleikum,
Sebastiaan