Crap!

One HAS to control their feelings and emotions - nobody cares about your (in general) feelings and emotions except for a loved one (maybe). The rest of the population doesn't want to be bothered. Even for the loved ones, it is easier to repress the emotions than to put that sort of a burden onto someone who you have no clue as to how they will respond. Or, more importantly, if they may at any point in time later on will use that knowledge against you.

I keep my shit to myself and am much better off that way. I cannot recount the times that I got close to telling someone how I really felt only to be shut down shortly thereafter... better not to go there. Saves a lot of heartache and drama.

Funny, my temp came in yesterday and asked if I was pregnant (I immediately shot him an evil look because I thought he was suggesting I've gotten fat) because I seemed unusually happy (whew, sigh of relief). I told him that I actually was unusually frustrated with my job and particularly annoyed... I asked him what kind of drugs he was on, but he denied taking any. Sigh. Fact is, you'll never know how I really feel and I like it that way!!

There.