I have a need to share this with you guys. I just broke up with my fiancee last night, after 7.5 years together. We came to a "mutual agreement", which makes things a bit easier, but it still is very hard for me to cope with. It's all still so new, I don't think I quite understand it yet myself.

I am lucky to have good friends to help me get by (here on JT, you know who you people are - a huge THANK YOU to you!!!).

As far as my feelings are concerned, someone has written it all down for me, so I'll just quote here.

It's been a cold, cold, cold, cold night tonight
And I can't get you off my mind
God knows I've tried
Did I throw away the best part of my life
When I cut you off, did I cut myself with the same damn knife
Hide my tears in the pouring rain, had my share of hurt and pain
Don't say my name, run away, cause it's all in vain

My hearts breaking even, now there's no use we even try
Hey I cried, Yeah I lied, hell I almost died
Don't got a reason, let's just fold the cards and say good-bye
It's all right, just two hearts breaking even tonight

It's been a long, long, long time
Since I've had your love here in my hands
We didn't understand it, we couldn't understand it
But, nothing's fair in love and hate
You lay it all down and walk away, before it's too late
We danced all night as the music played
The sheets got tangled in the mess we made
There in the stains, we remain,
No one left to blame

Go on, get on with your life, Yeah - I'll get on with mine
Broken hearts can't call the cops, yeah it's the perfect crime
Twisting and turning the night keeps me yearning
I'm burning alive
I'm paying the price again
But I'll see the light again


I probably don't make any sense here, but thanks for listening!