I think you are very talented to be able to write that well in English as I assume you can in your native language.

I think online friendships in general are difficult and a romantic relationship even more so. I also don't think that bashing males or females in this case makes a difference. It's a hard way to get to know someone realistically. People can mask a lot online.

It sounds to me as if you more than went halfway in trying to mend things and it simply didn't work. You deserve points for tryng though and were able to write quite eloquently about it. Isn't this how good art is born?

Kathleen