2 weeks ago 2day i was at the hospital with my best friend when his wife gave birth to their first child Jessica. it was a great day and she is a beautiful girl.

i am 26 my best friend Jon is 24 and it was very hard to believe that he was now a father, even though you know it is coming its still very strange.

On tuesday my nan fell over in the kitchen and while my mum looked after my grandad i went in the ambulance with my nan to the hospital.
after they had given her some morphine for the pain they did an xray which showed she had broken her hip, which made her worry because she wanted to get home to look after my grandad.

anyway after they had took her to a ward i went back to her flat to get her some books and clothes, and they were going to do the operation to fix her hip the next day. my mum took grandad to a home for the night as he cant do much for himself.

wednesday i went to work thinking cant wait to go to see nan tonight.
i aint sure what time they operated but it was in the afternoon.
the hospital rang wednesday night to say that they couldnt wake nan up properly after the op and that she was being moved to intensive care.

the doctor explained to us ( her 2 daughters , 2 sons, me and my brother) that she might not make it.

we went in to see her,i held her hand i told her she could beat it that we still needed her that i loved her.

she died at 6.25am on thursday 83 years old.

we took my grandad to feed the ducks this morning and he laughed and smiled. we took him back to the home and he cried. we are going back to see him in a minute we will take a game with us that we normally play with him on a sunday. he is confused they were married for 63 years.

when i left my nan tuesday night we had a chat and i said i wished things could stay like they were when we were young and she said she did too because "we had a lot of fun" she told me she loved me lots and i told her i loved her too. im so gratful for that.

the funeral is on friday at 1.30pm i dont think ill ever believe she is gone i thought she was invinsible i never ever thought she would die (i know thats stupid)

my nan spent her entire life giving to other people. even as i write this i cant believe she is gone. my whole family is devestated. we are all so so lucky to have had my nan she is the most amazing person i have ever known. i will always miss her.

i aint sure why im writing this on here to be honest.
just make sure that the people you love know that you do.