oh jesus! when i woke up today, it was 12:59 i had no sensitivity in my body parts, my head ached as hell, i had to look around to see where i was, had to check if i brought everything home yesterday (glasses, money, jacket,...) and when i tried to recall yesterday night i failed to do so in huge parts. sometimes i think: is it really necessery to kill myself with alcohol whenever i'm hanging out? it's not that i do that every week sometimes i don't go out for a month or so but whenever i "hit the streets" i turns out to be an alcohol-massacre.
actually i wanted do study today- get my things with those damn anemias fixed and continue reading my cider house rules- instead i'm sitting here in front of my laptop trying to construct proper english sentences and regularly fail to type them.
but back to the drinking. what happened yesterday? good question. i know exactly that i was in the theater with my gf watching the bad grazer actors in a very modern version of shakespeares "as you like it". after that i needed a beer. and moreover, there was a med-party going on somewhere. my gf can't go to loud places cause of her tinnitus so she went home and i went to the party. alone at first. but it was a med-party so i thought i'd know a hell lot of ppl there. and i did. when i entered it was the same as always- meaning my to "angels of doom"- my two (female) friends from vorarlberg (the ones with the funny language) they were at a high level (blood alcohol) already so i had to make up. after my second beer two friends of mine came and the setting for alcoholic self destruction was up. at first we just stood there drinking, talking. but then we hit the dancefloor. i still was too sober for that- i hate dancing (sober) so tried my best to get to the appropriate dancing-level. and this, methinks i exaggerated a bit. my vision in my minds-eye get blurred from this time on. what i remember is a construct of my brain i guess. it's the rememberance of the exact place where we were with the ppl who where there and some music added and mixed together to a "fear and loathing in las vegas" like movie. i know that i had to go to a get some money- one of my vorarlbergerinnen accompanied me. not for fun but to baby-sit me. when i went back i think i remember a scene where the girl laughed at me like mad cause i had forgotten that i've been to the bank (5mins before). but this may be made up- i don't know if that really happaned. finally we changed the location and went to the kultus. a students bar with a lil touch of a brothel. if you want company for the night- you go to the kultus- if you just wanna get wasted, you also go there. so we went there. on our way i talked with the other one of my vorarlberger girls about her date who seemed to be an idiot. i tried to convince her that he isn't for he is a good good friend of my. then i think she said something like "and what's it with you and veronika?" this my dear reader was a royal punch in my tummy. veronika (the other vorarlberg girl- not to be mixed up with verena, my gf) is a very good friend of my- i like her a lot. a big lot . i didn't know what to answer, and sincerely, i don't recall what i answered. she is off in icq today so i won't find out.
after we were in the kultus, i think we drank something again. but due to my weak legs which couldn't drag me securely anymore i soon went home.

Martin


p.s.: to be continued on wed, nov 16th. after the season party in my students hall....