Oh Vanesa - talk about being torn by two different emotions. It's not too often you will experience such joy and such sadness so close together (fortunately). I'm very sorry for your loss.
Congratulations on the birth of your son. I think the best thing I could say to you is that I hope you enjoy him as much as I have enjoyed my children. My kids have been the ultimate life's experience and I am still learning from them (though I like to think that they have picked up a few things from me too

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Kathleen