I know how you feel. My grandmother was in a nursing home for 10 years with Alzheimer's. By the time she died, she was curled in a fetal position, hadn't spoken in years, hadn't had solid food for years, and only moved her eyes. She was on a nasal feeding tube for 11 months. I went to see her regularly, but it was still harder on holidays. She died right before Thanksgiving in 1998 and her funeral was much more joyful than sad because she was free from that shell of a body.

I had a pretty sour Christmas myself, but for completely different reasons. This year Christmas just sucked from start to finish.

Becky