for the 1st time ever ive been able to say i really didn't want to drink alcohol. from last sunday till this sunday i was out every night or day drinkin and by time it got to friday i was out of it. i just sat thinking i can't keep this up much longer. suffice to say after several quick vodkas id forgotten all about it and drank right thru the nite till 15 minutes before i had to go to work and ended up falling asleep in work stinking of booze.

went dancin on sunday night and was actually sitting thinkin brilliant man after this i can stop drinkin.

dunno man maybe im gettin too old and i fot i wudnt want to go out till saturday at the latest but my mates r wantin to go to a rather cool bar on thursday afternoon and im pretty much up for it providing ive finished this massive report ive to do.

anyone else ever thought maybe they're getting past it then thinkin **** it ill sleep when im dead?