I'm so sorry to hear that Ryan - it is a rotten way to start the New Year. In my case it was a Grandmother that was very special to me. She died when I was 19 and to this day, certain times of the year I think about her and miss her but now it's a warm feeling. My Dad died when I was 17 and every time I go to a baseball game I think of him - he was a baseball fanatic. The older you get, it's nice to keep the good memories - after a while the hurt and the grief mellows and the good memories stay.

Kathleen