Thanks Kathleen and Vanesa, i'll try to find this article today.

I think Kathleen, your words are wisdom, and i know i should react like that, i'll try, it sounds so much better when i read how you tell me to face the situation. All i want is peace.
I explained my children, simply (i hope) - you're right they don't need the details .... But James would like to tell one or two words to some persons, he doesn't want to leave me alone going somewhere in the village .. i try to tell him each time he can't react like that, and i'm not in danger ... but he's not blind.
I don't want to go as down as i was recently, i'm not strong enought yet to face something like that.
I don't want to be sick again, i just want to keep my jobs and continue what we decided, it works actually, life is different at home, there is more communication and even with troubles : money, cars etc .... we are more like a team than like before ennemies. Kids are happy again. I thought they would never be the same as before, but they are ! So i don't want to see our family destroyed by people we don't even know !

And why me Vanesa ? ....... some said jealousy ! i don't know what i have people would be jealous of honestly. I own my house but it's a sacrifice of each day to keep it, my jovi car maybe ? same, it's hard to keep it. I work at three different places to keep all that, i'm far from beeing rich ..... so i don't know. And yes, it's a local paper .... Hope it won't affect too much my husband's situation at work ....