what's the point ?

i mean, everyday, i try to do everything to please everyone, (i think the other mums here can understand) and everyday it starts in the morning, you never do what your kids want, you are the horrible mummy, the cereals are not the one they asked !! if there's nothing on the box it's nearly your fault, in any case, you can try to give ideas to do something else, you made some noise and they missed something on this particular program they didn't want to see, another war in view ..... !!! the tshirts they wanted to wear are not washed (they were well hiden under the bed !!) , and you're not quick enough to do everything !!
and of course daddys are great !! poor daddys, they are tired, they at work all the day, but a woman at home, everybody knows this, she has nothing to do ..... it's an easy job ! easy hours, non stop !!!

i don't think i want something special, i know this life is not perfect but in two days, i lost two friends, one because i can't forgive anything and the other, you're gonna laugh .... because of my english, i said something (in fact it was a translation of a french expression) and this friend took it wrong i suppose and as i can't keep my feelings for me, once he started throwing me some reproach, i did the same, he didn't appreciate the way i talked to him, it's so stupid, i'm really sad about this, once again, i was trying to please someone ... i was making efforts everyday with my english, next time if i meet a non-french person, i'll say i can't speak english at all, no need to make any effort, sooner or later, i could pay it again. It was the same with my husband 10 years ago ... i have never talked to him in english anymore, i wanted to please him, i was doing my best ....
i think i'm just too stupid, i have to remember the others are not like me, i am true, when i love someone it's deeply .... but it's not everyone and it's life, but constantly, i have problems with this, i want to do the best for everyone, but the word is not like this. I even had an accident yesterday evening because of this .......... i don't understand.
Sorry for this post but i can't talk to my friends anymore (they are the two i was talking of everything)

Sorry to hear that you feel like that Jess

As for life at home, even if I'm not a mum myself I can understand how you feel, you pictured it very well! Have you tried to get a job outside of home, and take the kids to daycare or something? Even if the job was the odd hours every now and again, it'd give you something to get your mind of home for a while.

And those friends... It sounds like they weren't really your friends. If you lose a friend because of a mistake in language (he should know you're not a native speaker anyways, and that non-natives make mistakes with their language that can sometimes be misinterpreted), to me that wasn't a true friend to begin with. Still, it's bad to lose even one friend, and you lost two in a short time

Sounds to me like you need to take a break from life at home. Just take a day off and go somewhere all by yourself, leave the kids to your husband or someone else, and just go out for a day, do what you want to do, pamper yourself. Go and do some serious shopping or to a spa or something, you deserve it!

Even if you can't talk to your friends there, you'll always have us here on JT to listen to you! You can count on us, that you can be sure of

awwww poor Jess. - Yes Laura is right, you need a Jess day!
A day all to yourself. Spoil yourself, have a massage, buy some new clothes etc. You sound like you deserve and need it.

Thank you very much Laura and Donna, i'm sure you're right, i need a Jess day (love this expression !) but it's not easy .... husband at work, so i must stay at home for the kids,
in any case, i can't go anywhere, because of this stupid accident yesterday evening, i need to repair my car first, at least, the tyre ... and my eyes are so red !!!
thank you very much again

You mean you p1ssed yourself?

car accident.

anyways no matter hwat ur kids say or do i'm pretty sure i speak for the majority of people with both parents at home who have alot more respect and love for their mothers than fathers.

not saying i dont respect my dad or nothing but i can get along with my mum alot and like to do more to help her than my dad.

even if they don;t say it, they will feel it.