i mean, everyday, i try to do everything to please everyone, (i think the other mums here can understand) and everyday it starts in the morning, you never do what your kids want, you are the horrible mummy, the cereals are not the one they asked !! if there's nothing on the box it's nearly your fault, in any case, you can try to give ideas to do something else, you made some noise and they missed something on this particular program they didn't want to see, another war in view ..... !!! the tshirts they wanted to wear are not washed (they were well hiden under the bed !!) , and you're not quick enough to do everything !!
and of course daddys are great !! poor daddys, they are tired, they at work all the day, but a woman at home, everybody knows this, she has nothing to do ..... it's an easy job ! easy hours, non stop !!!

i don't think i want something special, i know this life is not perfect but in two days, i lost two friends, one because i can't forgive anything and the other, you're gonna laugh .... because of my english, i said something (in fact it was a translation of a french expression) and this friend took it wrong i suppose and as i can't keep my feelings for me, once he started throwing me some reproach, i did the same, he didn't appreciate the way i talked to him, it's so stupid, i'm really sad about this, once again, i was trying to please someone ... i was making efforts everyday with my english, next time if i meet a non-french person, i'll say i can't speak english at all, no need to make any effort, sooner or later, i could pay it again. It was the same with my husband 10 years ago ... i have never talked to him in english anymore, i wanted to please him, i was doing my best ....
i think i'm just too stupid, i have to remember the others are not like me, i am true, when i love someone it's deeply .... but it's not everyone and it's life, but constantly, i have problems with this, i want to do the best for everyone, but the word is not like this. I even had an accident yesterday evening because of this .......... i don't understand.
Sorry for this post but i can't talk to my friends anymore (they are the two i was talking of everything)