well, I am glad I am not the only freak who develops feelings for a co-worker. Though, honestly, it has never happened before. Partly because I will not let myself even think about it - the option of getting involved with someone at work has been absolutely non-existant for me. (there are probably borderline righteous posts of mine to that effect on this board somewhere).

While this was for the most part only physical attraction, I could hack it. Just distance myself from him and not get caught in the file room with him. Now, this has spread to be rather emotionally involving and that is what makes it so freaking hard.

Allwyn, the option of us having a fling is not available. No matter how it would end it would end for him or me having to leave our current job. Sooner or later. I worked very hard for my career and despite the fact that I am the woman and he is the man, given our levels it probably would be him who had to leave. I could never do that to him.

Windy Miller - I guess that is what I need to keep in mind. This part of the project will continue until the beginning of December, then I'll be out of town on training, take vacation, go to another training and come late January we'll see where we are. The problem is that we work in the same group and he is developing an expertise in the same line as mine is. Which means that he will continue to work on my projects, but hopefully not in such intense environments.....

Allwyn, I don't think I would mind if he saw someone else. (kinda) That would make the whole thing 'impossible' again and that would be good.

ARghhhh.....

And, no, I don't think I want a relationship with him... I couldn't picture it... but I still need to be around him ... constantly ... how ****ed is that?