I have no idea really and actually have been trying to figure that out myself.

There has never been a person in my life that I particularly looked up to or that I felt influenced by. Well, at least not real people. Certainly, there are historic figures I have admiration and respect for, but they couldn't influence me as our lives never collided.

All of my desires/hopes/ambitions (constructive and destructive) have always come out of myself - a deeply hidden well of 'the force' (lol) it seems. Perhaps it's an anti-fight that kept me on course. I hated my childhood soooooo much that the incapacitating fear of being in the same position ever again, kept me moving along even though everything in life was trying to hold me back.

Long story, short answer: my greatest influence in life is my grave fear of being someone or being in a position I have not the least bit of respect for.


Hate and fear are more powerful than love ..... don't you think?

back on track in order of actual questions (;)):

bonji1968: Yes, and I will never put myself in a position again where someone could hurt me like that. Unfortunately, my unwillingness to open up emotionally stifles the success rate of any relationships I might find myself in. Generally, I just get bored in relationships and head for the door - well before my partner realizes something's up. Hence, I've got a long list of ex-lovers who hate my guts. Better than getting hurt though :)



Do you think trust can be learned?

Yes. We start out with trust as babies (after all, we don't have anyone or anything else to trust on besides our mom and dad for feeding, clothing and changing diapers) and I think we learn how not to trust by bad experiences. In that same way, we can also learn how to trust again.

Very few people are trustworthy though, don't you think?

Extremely!!!!

Can you believe it is already mid-July again???!!!???!!!

Yeah i know it flies by .




Do you ever invent things?

No.

Could you live without the internet?

I'm sure I could, I just hope I wouldn't have to!! Once you get used to it, it is actually quite an interesting and handy medium!

What do you think happens when you die?

i think your "spirit" as it were goes somewhere . not sure , i dont beleive in heaven or anything like that but well lets say i'm sure you dont just go . i know something happens.


have you ever nearly died? as in having your heart restarted?

No!! (Touch wood) never been in hospital.

Favourite month?

August perhaps, it is summer, everyone goes on holiday, work is very quiet, and so on.

Have you ever made a drastic decision?