yes there is lots of ice in the sea, but not so much on land - particularly in the summer. It is just gorgous from a landscape perspective - huge mountains, lakes, meadows and not crowded at all. Most of the civilization is along the coast and kind of clustered, once you get out you are truly alone. Not many roads and just nature. I imagine it to be fantastic. No city-lights, just the stars. If you drive far enough to the north you can see the northern lights. And I so want to see the icebergs.

I do gravitate to the nature type vacation rather than poolside at the hotel in or close to a city.


do you like to hike?

Ive not done that much of it though I do want to climb Ben Nevis at some point. Im pretty sure there's one side of it you can pretty much walk up even though its the highest peak in the UK. i may very well be mistaken.

was going to do the west highland way over summer which is basically a big walkign trail fromt he north of glasgow to fort william. takes about a week to do but i dont really have time and my left leg goes a bit gimpy if i walk on it too much and gets sore if its cold at night so it would probably do my head in by the endof the week,

V ever bungee jumped or anything like that?

no - I am afraid I'd faint.


you?

I don't know i can do it ever.


V Do u think ur achiving everything u aim for?

musically. ive pretty much done everythign i wanted to do initially without getting carried away.

in life im happy with who i am.

other stuff is changing all the time so i dont really know where im goign but im sure ill know when i get there.

V you?

no really. I had real tough time last 3-4 years. And what ever i aim for i never able to achive it. So not good over all, but on other part, i just started new life which started brightly. I'm just hoping it will carry on and go where ever i want to go.

V Whats ur ulitmate aim in ur life?

I don't particularly have an aim as such. as i said. everythign i realistically sat down and said i want to do this with my music, ive done. goign any further is pretty much out of my reach but we'll see what happens.

as for life in general i just want to have a fun time cos we're only here once so why bother wallowing around or whatnot? too many people focus on one thing way too much and dont realise all the other good things goign on round about them.

V agree?

at the end of my life I want to be able to say I made a difference in at least one person's life and not getting sucked into the whole commercial captialistic money greedy machine out there.

you?

see my post before yours.

:P

agree?

I wish i can agree with that. But not and i'm sure u going to realise sooner or later that life is not just having fun.


V Do u get depress a lot?

yes


you?

yeah lataly too much i guess. :?

V What u do when u get depress?

ah, lately I am just trying to focus on something else and get myself really really busy with it - it isn't working well though. :?


ever had that feeling when you thought you'd burst out of your body and your blood is literally boiling? :?

listen to some music

u?

I don't know how to deal with depression at a moment really. :?


You mean gett too angry?. I may showmore anger on internet then in real life. I usualy go slient. But yeah depression is just killing me inside.


V Do ever try to find a reason for getting deprssed?

you mean trying to find out why I am depressed? Not really - I used to think about it a lot, but there is just nothing obvious really. I do remember trying to poison myself when I was about 5 years old - before I went to school and the only reason I could think of was that I didn't want to be where I was.

So, nowadays I don't think about the reason anymore.


What do you think you are depressed about?

Probably being lonly for long time and also not being there where i wish i would at this stage. And there are lot of othere reasons too,.

V Ever u tried to kill ur self?

yes


you? If not - ever fantasized about it?

never physicaly tried and i don't think i ever do also. But i think about it lot of time

V What u make carry on?

drugs :?



are you always depressed or do you go through cycles of being very happy and very sad?

im usually happy but sometimes i just get emotionally drained and feel almost empty soul-wise for days on end.

with regards to suicide, a while ago i was lying one night just thinking about stuf fin general. nothing depressing or anything but something clicked in my head and I thought it would be so easy just to end it and not have to worry about anything or try to be any or whatnot.

actually kinda freaked me out.

V with love will we survive? :P

with love and gouranga :P


what makes you really really mad?

traffic cops

shit new bands thinking they're oasis or something because they're playing somewhere that isnt a garage. ive been there done that i'll knock you down a peg or two and then you better not act like a prat to me again.

People who dress to be individual. I saw 10,000 individual folk queuing outside dowload today all wearing the same black clothes and the same black mascara listening to the same bands....... its sad why bother doing it when youre not different to someone in a tracksuit?

thats off the top of my head. there are many more but that my friends is for another rant.

what makes you mad?

hypocracy. That our VP rags on my boss for going to the bar instead of the game, even though the VP didn't show at either place.

Pushing kids too hard - academically or athletically. Makes me real mad.

People that think they are better because they have a well paying job and people that think they are better because they aren't yuppies.

Religious rightousness. Any rightousness for that matter.


How tall was your tallest date? :lol:

one of my exe's wasnt much shorter than me so she musta been about 5"8 or something. i dont like girls that could kick my ass if needed :)

sorry im kinda slow tonight my PCs decidign when and when not it wants to work.

V shortest guy youve ever dated?

shortest guy must have been something like 5.8" or so. Slightly taller than me.


I am having the same problems - do you think Kev is out to get us?

no he's out playing pool.

i was saying i dont know how there can be a wealth divide between the north and south of england because up his bit theyve got pubs you pay 15 quid and get your drink for the rest of the night and hes away to play pool all night for a tenner.

cant give your money away by the sound of it.

but he did delete my kitten from big brother thread which I'm not chuffed about. luckilyl goose reimbursed it or whatever it would be with slightly more acceptable word useage.

V is your computer breaking mine? :mad:

possibly :lol:

I've got better pics on mine :wink:


do like playing pool?

yeah was actually playign last week after finishing up uni. my favourite pub up the town has th ebest tables in the city as far as im concerned.

I hit a peak after a few drinks but its like 6 quid for a cocktail jug so my peak lasts a very short time

V you play pool?

I used to when I was young :P

I haven't played in many many years :(


do you like darts?

nah not really.

V why do Americans not regard somethign as an exciting sport if teams dont score over 30 points in a game?

because of the bigger is better mentality


ever played ice hockey?

I played roller hockey as in on roller blades when i was younger. wasn't too bad either but i got sick of it. not many ice hockey teams here but i still like it.

V ever boxed?

kick boxing but only in the privacy of my home (well and with a boyfriend who thought it would be could for me to hit one of those huge sacks - hated it)

my boss just told me to get rid of my Kurt Cobain screensaver at work. Is he nuts?

no i dont like the man or have much respect for him (hides behind desk)

V are you actually getting paid to sit here and talk shite with me?

:oops: yeah. I actually work too - I know hard to believe. I go through all my email while I do this lol.

that is what my boss said - arse - he is listening to carmen electra crap :roll:


are you still behind your desk?

im at my desk in my house. instead of sitting around wasting time on the internet I get to sit around sweating like a beast in a kitchen with an oven at work. which luckilly is only saturday and sunday mornings

any particular reason why Jim stopped playing and not asking a question, but if I do the same he accuses me of all sorts of things? :?